Week 1 of Powerfest
We are 1 week into Powerfest, things have been decent. I feel like I have been playing pretty well. I have been enjoying the grind, which is the most important thing of all. I really feel like we are doing a way better job at streaming too, way higher energy, way more talking. Also because we are working on our mental game. I always used to be full of confidence, full of joy, always talking, joking, messing around.. and that changed as time went by. So by going deep and trying to fix our mental game when it comes to poker, also more of the good parts of old Stevie are coming to the surface.
I feel like I have been way more chill, just embracing the grind as well. Not going to lie, things have been insanely rough on the felt. Zero results, sometimes a min cash and if we have a deep run finishing 30-50th position. Not seeming to be able to win all-ins.. you know that is all in your head too, it may be true though, but you can't change it anyway. Because we haven't been seeing any signs of success, slowly but surely desperation starts to sneak in. That's where we kick it right the fuck out too.
Have we really been playing well?
When I am not seeing results and I do feel like I am playing well, I start to doubt myself. Am I getting delusional? Am I telling myself I am playing well to feel good about myself? Do I not just suck? What if.... let's stop it right there again. This time we are not going to run away, we are going to face those thoughts and struggles and use it as a stepping stone. I am doing more reviews with others, by being more active in Discord as well as the DW poker study sessions. Constantly trying to get feedback myself as well and continue to seek for more. I may be fooling myself that I am playing well, but others won't. So luckily, by comparing my thoughts on most Discord hands to other people's opinions.. I have noticed that we are very often thinking in the right direction. Maybe we are just not able to apply it in-game or maybe it is just a matter of variance.
Either way, I am not going to sit back and hope it turns around. I am going to study even more and look for even more feedback from better players so I continue to improve and make sure we are heading into the right direction even when the results are not there to show us. Everyone who is having a rough time on the felt too, hang in there! Join Discord and get feedback on your hands, learn from other's experiences too. If you have been crushing lately, enjoy it. Don't take it for granted, don't become overconfident and start punting off your stacks. Always try to stay with both feet on the ground, whether you are having a downswing or upswing. Let's end this Powerfest strong and show what we can do!